Saturday, September 27, 2008

My confession...

I found this on my former preacher's blog... something for you Church of Christ people to think about... The article is directly in line with what I've felt for so long.

Going to Tennessee my junior year for spring break campaign - we worshiped with and worked along side... gulp... other church groups. How dare the few churches (different denominations) unite together in the community to reach the others. Why didn't we spend our time converting those sinners (aka Methodists) instead of trying to reach those who didn't have any relationship with God or church connections. How dare we be prayed over (yes, hands were raised to us - gulp!) by crazy pentecostals. We were better just to do it on our own, right? How dare different churches missionaries unite together in Africa to teach the devil worshippers... They should be converting each other first, right?
The secret scandal has weighed on my heart for too long. And I know that it will not be received by some of you very well. But I feel like a liar every time I think about it so I'm coming clean. And Greg has given me permission. For too long I have worried about "letting people down" - but to not tell the truth seems worse.
We do not go to church of Christ any longer. I think we would both tell you that in our hearts the majority of our doctrine is still in line, but we no longer attend the same. We go to a community church. Do I worry about what I will teach my child if we are still attending a similar church when the questions come? Yes, I do. But pray that the words will come at the right time and that, together, we kind find the answers to the question through the Bible and not just what we are told to believe.
Our church has music - instruments. Women and men both pass the collection plates and serve communion. There is a women's minister - she even preaches sometimes. Outloud! Men actually get to hear our point of view. There are actually people there who aren't white! A rarity from my past I promise you. Greeted at the door the other week by a middle eastern man. And not everyone there has a college background, makes good money, or even has English as their first language. Amazing to have small group discussions and have a variety of backgrounds - makes conversation a lot more thought provoking I promise you. I like being challenged to come up with my own opinions...
Do I agree with everything there? No of course not. Am I perfectly comfortable with everything we do/don't do? No, but I'm seeking and questioning. Do I wish some thing were different? Yes. Is there a church out there that has all of this? I hope so somewhere and pray that we may be led there someday. Until then, this is where we stay.
Do I need your prayers? Absolutely. However, I pray that these aren't prayers for this household who are now lost, going to Hell, disappointments....
Instead, prayers for strength for all of us to continually question; seek answers; accept all with love; allow God (and only Him) to make salvation decisions and not us; that we may have that grace for each other; not assume to be the only ones who understand all the He plans, allowing ourselves to condemn others; and to be able to come together to reach more people in the world than we can bickering with each other about who is allowed to pass the communion plates on Sundays, or whether music is truly Christian even if there is a guitar in the background, or to not lose sight of the message being preached because the one speaking is female. A prayer for unity.

Tomorrow, happy baby pictures I promise! :)

6 comments:

Becky Carter said...

Bobbie,
Thank you for your honesty! I have always wondered what you thought about me! ;-) I knew what your church stance was for so long, but I just had faith that maybe you just looked past some of it when you saw my family! I am glad to hear I was right, or at least now anyway. I comend you for seeking God's truth in His Word, rather than in faulty human ideas. As humans, we are never perfect in our actions/ideas and must continually ask the Lord to show us His truth in everything. I will pray for you all and the people who read your blog that their eyes and hearts would be open to your message. If we were closer I would come give you a hug (whether you liked it or not!) ha ha,
Becky

Kara said...

Hey...we are going to a (gulp!) Baptist church and LOVE it! Yea for God's truth and love!

Kent said...

Bobbie,
Amen sister! When we lived in Venezuela we didn't go to a "church of christ"...there wasn't one. But we met with christians from all faiths and amazingly we all got along. Sure there were things I wish could have been different but it was a blessing just to meet with each other every Sunday. I also led a womens bible study each week. One summer while home I went to church and after talking to one of the ladies about our church and the ladies bible study she proceeded to go find me material to "convert" those ladies to the church of christ. I was stunned...we were studying the bible but that wasn't good enough unless church of christ was on the door I guess. You have definately opened a can of worms but I support you and Greg's decision and am thankful that you have a church home. We love you!

Kent said...

oh bobbie...shelly left the above message..not kent. :^)

Leah said...

Hey Bob,
I think the church you guys are attending sounds wonderful and am proud of you guys! We have visited several community churches and still think about visiting others until we find one we like. We are tired of doing things just because it is tradition, tired of the tired worship in our congregation. My sister attends a wonderful community church in Kansas and loves it. So I very much applaud you! Love you guys!

Sam said...

Go girl! I miss our "heathen" Baptist church in Abilene almost every Sunday. The church here is SOOO boring to me. I miss instruments. Maybe we need to go to church with y'all one of these Sundays... :)